They don't know about the pain.

They don't know about the midnights.

All they know is that fake smile.

                                         @Depression

My lips say, ‘Fine, thanks’,‘ but my eyes tell a different story, my heart sings a different tune, and my soul just weeps’.  

It might not be the emotion,

Many souls will relate.

Some might understand the impression,

These lines are trying to expatiate.

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Have you ever seen a person depressed & Have you ever sink in what he/she feels??

When we saw physical injuries, we treated that injuries. Whatever we want doctors, hospitals, rest and physiotherapy. We prioritise that but what about mental trauma, heart-break and pain of losing someone???

There are some scars we never able to see them. Sometimes the person next of you but you don't see the pain he feels.

Here the question arises about our mental health," what depression is?"

Through the following points we can able to understand the real fact of "DEPRESSION".

DEPRESSION IS ILLUSION: -

When the world looked colourless,

Everything took a greyish tone,

And you were left with the sins that couldn't atone.

It was the time…

When the body felt bloodless,

And you're helpless.

Depression doesn't come from outside; it lives within you. It slowly creeps into your brain and waits for a chance to show its true colours.

~Deceptive smile to lock the inner screaming.

~Numb background with a plain statement ‘I’m FINE (Falling in Nasty Emptiness).’

~Invisible chaos in the visible silence.

~Disturbing arena where ‘Hope’ and ‘Nope’ flood the mind at the same time.

~Mono act with a mono audience.

~Like a noise-cancellation headphone where the monotonous music plays on a continuous loop.

~Tiring inner battle where opponent and supporter fight for the same cause.

~Dull theatre where the real action takes place ‘behind the scenes’ instead of the public stage.

~Overwhelming sea of expressionless expressions.

~Transferring long-stored inner turmoil into self-harm movements (like banging hands on wall in frustration)

~Prison with the keys but you don’t know how to unlock the door.

~Worthless feeling due to constant hammering on self-confidence

~Not an escape from reality, but a continual effort to experience the normal daily schedule.

~Waking up to the belief that nightmare is better than reality.

~It makes sleep like a shelter where you can escape temporarily from the storm.

~It degrades you from outstanding to mediocre to below average. Everyone reproaches you for your sloppiness, but they don't know you're putting in tremendous effort merely to be alive.

~It constantly tells you that you do not deserve happiness or success, you do not deserve to be alive, and the voice is extremely persuasive.

Depression is state of feeling, lack of interest in activities.

~You can feel pain but can't shed tears.

~Boredom in motion.

~Inability to answer the question ‘What’s wrong’ when nothing seems right.

Depression is a pair of iron hands pulling you back and making such simple things as breathing, getting out of the bed, brushing teeth incredibly difficult for you to do.

Depression is feeling like you're drowning and each time you come up for air something pushes you back down.

Depression is feeling in the pit of a stomach that you try and ignore.

Depression possesses you like a demon, making you do stupid shit regardless of the consequences. But this demon flees when the time comes to take responsibility.

~You feel empty and weighted down at the same time.

~Expressing suppressed emotions through eyes in silence when lips froze.

~ It's a feeling like you have lost something but having no clue when or where you last had it.

~Then one day you realise what you lost is yourself.

~ It feels like drowning except everyone around you is breathing.

Depression is an abusive ex-girlfriend you can never get rid of.

You get stuck with your thoughts so much that you end up in crying.

Depression keeps you disillusion with the World despite you having everything you want.

Living with depression is like walking in a dark tunnel without any glimmering lights at the end. As you go further into the tunnel, you doubt there will be an end.

Struggling with depression is like drowning in the ocean. While you're screaming for help and being swallowed by the wave, passers-by by think you're an excellent swimmer trying to catch their attention.

Moving on with depression feels like you're lost in a maze. You can no longer find your passion, motive, joy, friendship and even life.

PEOPLE THINK DEPRESSION AS –

People think those who wear black dress, posting broken hearted post, no shaving or having weird hairs, wearing uncleaned clothes, talking about Suicide are depressed.

But people are wrong.

That’s the thing about depression: A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight.

But depression is so insidious—and it compounds daily—making it impossible to ever see the end. That fog is like a cage without a key.

When you suffer from depression, ‘I’m tired ‘means a permanent state of exhaustion that sleep doesn’t fix. Sleep just isn’t sleep anymore—it’s escape.’

The only thing more exhausting than being depressed is pretending that you’re not.

Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time.

It’s the fear of failure, coupled with no urge to be productive.

It’s wanting friends but hating socializing.

It’s wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely.

It’s feeling everything at once, yet being paralyzingly numb.

They ask, “How are you doing?” But what they mean is, “Are you over it yet?

It’s worst being in depression.

Would you ever think people get cancer because they are not strong enough?

If not, don't judge people with depression.

Depression, like cancer, has nothing to do with weakness.

Would you ever tell an amputated person to get some exercise and start jogging ?

If not, stop telling people with depression to go out have some fun with friends.

Would you ever understand what it is like to suffer from malicious brain-tumour?

If not, stop saying you understand how people with depression feel.

The people smiling the brightest may be fighting a battle you know nothing about. They smile because depression has deprived their voice to tell you what is the matter with them.

In the lives of the saddest of us, there are bright days like this, when we feel as if we could take the great world in our arms and kiss it. Then come the gloomy hours, when the fire will neither burn on our hearths nor in our hearts; and all without and within is dismal, cold, and dark.

Believe me, every heart has its secret sorrows, which the world knows not, and oftentimes we call a man cold, when he is only sad.

(Henry Wandsworth Longfellow)

DIFFERENTIATION BETWEEN SADNESS AND DEPRESSION –

        Most people think that depression means constant sadness. In reality it's emptiness rather than sadness. It's the constant feeling of being numb. You wake up in the morning just to go back to bed again.

Sadness is a normal reaction to a loss, disappointment, problems or other difficult situation. It doesn't impact our life in a bigger way and doesn't stay longer. Probably it's not the illness of depression.

Being sad is an emotional feeling of human whereas depression is like walking with no heart or soul.

It's like a darkness literally lives inside you.

It's like walking through the World where everyone else is allowed to connect and you're there in the middle of a million people but you're completely on your own with a different tune playing in your head and without the right to part of anything.

When people becomes sad they want to share with loved ones but in depression they hide their pain from the people they Love. They act confident to hide their true feelings.

When you’re depressed you don’t control your thoughts; your thoughts control you.

Depressed tears don't fall; they hide accumulating behind eyelids that haven't the nerves strength to laid them go. You're not "sad”; you have nearly lost your ability to engage in the memory of what used to be called "happiness".

 

Depression is many things:

 Depression is waking up in the morning and feeling lost.

 Depression is being trapped.

 Depression is feeling so sad you wonder when if it will ever pass.

 Depression is feeling like you are drowning, and each time you come up for air something pushes you back down.

 Depression is a label that many people do not want to be associated with.

 Depression is a feeling in the pit of your stomach that you try and ignore.

 Depression is putting on a happy face when you want to cry.

 Depression is setting small goals to achieve throughout the day.

 Depression is acting confident to hide your true feelings.

 Depression is crying yourself to sleep at night and not knowing how to stop.

 Depression is hiding your pain from the people you love.

 Depression is looking back and wondering how and where it all went wrong.

 Depression is questioning your existence.

 Depression is judging yourself harsher than anyone else would.

 Depression is struggling to control basic emotions.

 Depression is pretending.

Depression is the tremendous guilt when you fuck things up.

Depression is feeling like you have failed.

Depression is feeling like you are in a room with no windows or doors.

Depression is feeling so free on a good day.

Depression is fighting through the bad days.

Depression telling yourself it is all going to be okay.

Depression is more common than people think.

Depression is being told to snap out of it.

Depression is hard to understand unless you've been in that hole.

Depression can happen to anyone but it also can be beaten with the correct help and support.

IT'S WORST BEING IN DEPRESSION –

~Trying to sleep, but can’t. You can oversleep or never sleep. You will always be tired.

~Always feeling helpless.

~Showing everyone that you are very happy, but from the inside you are crying.

~You never want to wake up from your sleep, because you don’t want to face the reality.

~Every day you start your morning with a smile but end up being sad at the end of the day.

~Always thinking about the Past like “how happy I was”.

~You are confused with your feeling . if someone ask you how are you feeling. you have nothing to answer. That feeling is emptiness.

~You avoid happy people , couples and good things as you think that you are not lucky like them.

~Hurting your family members by getting angry on them and suddenly realising that why you did that ?

~Destructive thoughts of revenge or doing something wrong to yourself. Depression destroys everything positive about you. Your confidence, self-esteem, optimism, etc. It destroys everything in a split second, but it takes forever to rebuild them.

~Eating very less or Eating too much.

~You want to go to some unknown place and scream all your heart out. No one should be there to stop you.

 

~Your innocence is decreasing day by day.

Depression deprives you of hope. You see yourself turning worse day by day, but there's absolutely nothing you can do.

~You feel like you are not lucky as others .

~You get annoyed by silly things.

~You have sudden mood swings and you are tired of them.

 

 

 

Depression degrades you from outstanding to mediocre to below average. Everyone reproaches you for your sloppiness, but they don't know you're putting in tremendous effort merely to be alive.

 

Depression destroys everything positive about you. Your confidence, self-esteem, optimism, etc. It destroys everything in a split second, but it takes forever to rebuild them.

 

Depression constantly tells you that you do not deserve happiness or success, you do not deserve to be alive, and the voice is extremely persuasive.

 

Depression eliminates the ability to enjoy anything. Instead, what you used to enjoy is becoming so bland that it can't even be the reason for you to live.

 

Depression takes control of your brain like a bully who really wants you screwed. But it leaves a tiny, tiny drop of sanity with you. In the end, you want to scream for help, only to find you've lost your voice.

 

Depression makes sleep like a shelter where you can escape temporarily from the storm.

 

Depression changes your perspective, and you see everything as pointless.

 

Depression induces tears but you can't really explain 'why you're crying'.

 

Depression turns your inside so heavy that you can barely walk or breath.

 

Depression leaves you far more scars than you can count.

 

Fighting against depression is like fighting a war you're destined to lose. No matter how many small battles you've won, in the end, you're not the winner, each of your victories will be forgotten.

 

Suffering from depression is like being homesick but you're missing a home you can never ever go back to.

 

 

Depression makes the question “What’s wrong?” difficult to answer. Because nothing is right and you don't know where to start.

 

Depression can totally consume you. Before you realize it, you have already become a walking corpse.

 

 

LAST BUT NOT THE LEAST: - (a ray of Hope)

There are many more reasons for depression like failure, pain, pressure, stress, disappointment, loneliness but still there are some reasons for what you alive.

Address your issues: What landed you here, what issues need attention, what fears you.

You are a human being. Deal yourself with sensitivity.

 

Anything that costs you peace of mind should be snapped out. You have to live this life and you know it better. Sanity of mind is more important than anything else.

‘Stop ruminating on everything, you have to ignore something’ to lead a healthy life.

Your mental health is as important as your physical health. Take care of both of them equally. If you are not healthy mentally, you can never be healthy physically.

 

Love and believe yourself, rest everything will fall in place.

- SK JUNED JAFRI